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Name: BiPoLar BuNNy
Birthday: 4/15/1986
Gender: Female
Interests: Dancing things? My Xbox 360!!! John Wayne Gacy, riding dirt bikes, salad sandwichs, not being lied to, jet skiing, Boohbahs, Animals, Playing in the rain, Xbox, PS2, GBA, Old and new video games, Halo2, Skateboarding, Guitar, Keyboard, Lisa Marx, Azumanga Daioh, Tenchi, Poetry, Writing, Skydiving, California, My sister and her baby, Vegetables, PETA, Michael Myers, Pit bulls, Green cookies, Super milk chan, Compatition, Aquateen hunger force, Softball, Rafting, Listening to people's heart beat, Rock Climbing, Roller Coasters, My 1966 Mustang, Racket Ball, Mud, Jeeps, Watching people sleep, Boats, Driving fast with my eyes closed, The Clash, LONDON!!!, British Accents, Wreaking cars, The colors red & black, Anime, Concerts, Xplay, Morgan Webb, Computers, Dreams, Pretty singers, Sad songs
Expertise: Breathing and walking. 
Occupation: Gamer, Computer Information Sy
Industry: Video Games
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AIM:  BiP0L4r BuNNy
MSN: bip0lar_bunny@hotmail.com
Member Since:
10/8/2004
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| I need someone to sing me to sleep so I don't have to anymore 
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| So... the puppies are almost big enough to sell. 2 more weeks *cry*
Parts of me are happy bc they are turning in to a HUGE responsibility (seven schnauzers is a little too much for me) lol.. but they are soooo cute. They just bounce around and bark at me now.
SOOOO ANYONE INTERESTED ON HAVING A PUREBRED SCHNAUZER PUPPY HIT ME UP!!! I have black/silver ones and some salt & pepper. woo woo.
They are Zildjian the Barbarian (Doggie Daddy) & Mos Eisley (Mommy) puppies and absolutly adorable. I can send some pics if anyone wants to see em. ^_^
LATERZZZZ
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| I wonder... what it's like to fall in love
I wonder... what it's like to mean it I wonder... what it's like to hold their hand I wonder... what it's like to feel them sit beside me
I wonder... who you are.
I hear a love song and I think of you
I watch a movie where love is something easy to do
The thought of growing old and starting a life
The thought of all the things and you being my ****
It doesn't matter because it's unreachable
So alone is where I stay, alone is where I'll lay
I don't want to hurt so I give nothing
So I'll always be just one being
Taken
...away
...........was
..................my
.......................faith
I have no reason to sit around waiting for something that will never be. Why do I even question myself, I already know the answer. I'm afraid... afraid of feeling something that I promised myself I would never feel again. I just can't let myself feel... I get mad at people if I start to. I DON'T WANT IT. Never. I just don't.. I will kill anything I feel inside.
I'd rather hurt myself then ever give anyone the chance to hurt me.
Love is too hateful.
I hate being lied to more then anything in the world... I won't ever believe lies.
I'd rather lie to myself and believe I don't feel then be lied to by someone else in the fact that they feel for me.
I believe that people can only truly 100% give themselves away once... after that all the things that humans really are made of become something you can see....
Fake
Liars
Hurtful
Ruthless
Then all the feelings that you never felt become a reality
Jealousy
Trust
Suspicion
Pain
Numbness
All the things that people really never want or should feel.
You know what would be nice.. if I would just fall in love.. just really fall in love. Not make myself... or try to talk myself in to it. A nice girl... one that loves me for everything that I am. We could get married... start a family... have grand kids... own a dog. Live by the lake. A girl who isn't a whore.. that doesn't make out with anything on two legs that has a vagina...
I can't really get past that wall... I don't feel sad, or lonely.. or anything really.
I just feel...
Buried
Lost
Confused
Most of all confused.... I don't want to feel "love" ever again and if I do I want it to be real this time.
but
Thats the thing...?? What is REAL love? How do you know that its not just someone lying to you? How do you know it will last? How do you know that they really are the one? What If your making a mistake? What if it doesn't work out? What if you get... hurt?
I always dream of simple things... just making someone else happy.. but at the same time.. I don't want to. I don't want anyone, then I do. I hate that about myself... so indecisive.
People say just take the leap... just fall... but that's exactly what happens.. you fall.. no one can fall forever. Sooner or later your going to hit something, hard.
It's not worth it.
It's not worth the pain... the denial... the way you lie to yourself because you can't believe what's happening.
It's just not worth it.
I was right before... before I made the biggest mistake of my life.
I'm better off alone. I've always been happier alone. I hope to always be just that, happy.
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| Yea.. I got a good one.
Look for someone easy to love and wants to love you just as much. :)
Love isn't suppose to be hard.. or difficult. It's not suppose to be something you have to chase or earn.
Plus people you have to chase usually don't want to be caught. It's more of like a trophy of how many people they can makeout with or sleep with or all of the above.
Those are the people who die alone or just end up with some ugo loser because they are out of there prime before they get mature enough to realize that they are stupid and wasting away, bc any girl worth having doesn't want some chick running around making out with half the state bc they think that makes their social status higher... my views it just makes them a slut.
Love doesn't make you cry or yearn for someone that isn't there. You both just well... fall. You fall then it seems like nothing in the world could take you away from that person.
Plus you both are just intertwine with each other like nothing else in the world matters.
Then you know you've found her or him in some people's case.. w/e. Also.. look for some one genuine and real. Someone you can be yourself around.
Anyone who says these kind of people don't exist are wrong and if I never find one... then I'm better off alone. | | |
| Can you help me remember how to smile?
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